First emotional break down of the semester

And on the last day too, go figure

Well recap: I think i did we on that test that I studied last minute for. I got both papers due this week turned in. I went out to Monroe's Tuesday and have a lovely time, saw bunches of lovely people who make me happy. Also met a really hot and attractive personality-wise (he's into the idea of volunteering around after graduating for college, I didn't realize there were more of us!) American guy who was in two of my classes this semester. Really bummed that I hadn't met him earlier. For all of my loudness and out-going and adventurousness in worldly things, I'm still shy/not out-going with guys, esp when I find them attractive. That and people just don't interact in classes here. Another thing I don't really like about the school system here. Ok, so Wednesday I had classes. That evening I went out to a friend's bday party but didn't go out once it went to the clubs b/c I had to study for a test. But I had so much fun, I really don't know why I've been so antisocial I do it b/c I'm supposedly working on my hw but no hw is ever actually achieved... wasting time, fruitlessly, on couchsurfers.com.

Anyways, Mandy came back to my apt to use my reliable internet for class registration. Well, we wound up not studying/paper writing and just hanging out. My plan to wake early fell through when I misset my alarm... wound up being just fine. The teacher gave us the test prompt beforehand so all i had to do was write out my answer before hand and remember it. I think I did well on the test today. So today I finished all of my classes for the semester. Weird, that was so short/fast.

It has actually been a bunch of lovely days back to back to back here in Galway. Today it was 59 and sunny. I just love sunny days. They make me all happy inside. today, in between my test and class, and then on the walk home I just sort of strolled along, listening to happy music on my ipod, with my eyes closed as the sun kissed my cheek. I love it.

Well, so I was in a lovely state of happiness until later today when I, just recently had a breakdown. Damn. So Anna and I decided Couch surfing is not working out and it's time to book hostels. Well, I let us both down by holding out so long b/c things aren't available or what is is expensive. So, we got Barcelona taken care of for decent prices, I guess. It was searching for hostels in Seville that I started to breakdown. Goodness I'm ridiculous. One, i think staring at the computer for that long and dealing with money just gives me a headache, no bueno. Then the unavailability of anything under 60 euro sort of set me off. What I hate more than the fact that I waited so long and now will have to spend a lot of money on a hostel when, had I booked it sooner, I could have found a much better deal, is that Anna now has to suffer the monetary consequences as well. I just am disappointed. I don't usually do spontaneous things, as far as housing goes, and the one time I try with couch surfing, it doesn't work out. Goodness, I realize this is ridiculous, money is just money it'll be ok. But, maybe a person just needs a break down everynow and again and well, I haven't had one at all this semester so, maybe it was time? So, yeah, I wound up calling Mom's cell to talk and she, the heavenly soul that she is, helped calm me down and remind me that 60 isn't too bad and that if that is the most money I spend in one night then I'm ok. Now, in a calmer state, with a headache after that cry meltdown (I hate crying/being emotional, it gives me a headache), i realize many people spend more than 60 on drinks in a single weekend. I don't drink and so I haven't done such a thing and I guess this money was overdue to be spent? Whatever, I still feel bad that I'll have to spend so much on a night and that Anna will have to too. Oh well, Spain will just have to really rock our faces off, which I'm sure it will.

Blah, ok, so, don't judge me too much for being an emotional woman. I'm ok now. Just lost a whole day's worth of time for doing hw and now am exhausted/headachy and so I'm going to go to bed early instead of going out... I'm one cool college student. I'm working hard tomorrow and going out tomorrow. I need to enjoy this experience, which wont be done crying over prices, so no more of that!

And, who can really stay upset when listening to Michael Buble? Thanks Jen for the music.

Nearing the end of the scholastic semester

And on a late note too. That paper, well, I didn't start actually typing until 10:30. Then I only got a page or so done before finally quitting around 2. Woke up at 5 and finished by 9:35. It was only 5 pages long, I'm just a slow writer... But it's done and turned in. My econ paper is also now printed as well and will be turned in tomorrow, yay! One last 'yay': Anna has a friend who is from Madrid who can host us, so one of our nights' sleeping arrangements are solved! Wait, I've got one more, I've also successfully registered for fall classes.

Now to the un-pleasantries: I've a test tomorrow I'm almost ready to start studying for. I know, I know, tsk tsk (It's 11:23 here)... I got another "sorry out of town" for Barcelona couch. Have yet to start working on those other 2 essays. Found out one of the cars at home was totaled. Yeah, home is just getting hit really hard this year. I don't know how, but they're surviving, and seem cheerful enough when I talk to them. Maybe their calmness is sort of like my eerie calmness before my school work. I'm worried about it to some degree, but I know it will be ok and I'll get it done one way or another... obviously mine is a much less serious matter and is all my fault. I've been lazy, my parents haven't done anything wrong. Oh, and before we get going into Karma, I like to bring it up too, but, Karma is actually not a result of past actions in this life, but rather of previous lives. Highly doubt my parents' past lives were such that now, in 2009, they'd get their comeuppances. The universe is just out of whack. But, we'll keep hope.

Random side note: my hamstrings are killing me! I did a workout I found online yesterday. Oh, I feel it today, bad, I can tell I'm out of shape... And one more, I might see a friend from high school in a couple of weeks. Charlie Keegan is studying abroad in France and will be coming to Ireland later on. Exciting! Oh, and in Spain I might see a friend who I met volunteering with Amigos in Nicaragua. Crazy small world, huh?!

Unproductivity at its best

So yesterday the only productive thing I did was read 50 pages of a book that I'll be analyzing for my stratification paper later on and I walked to Menlo Castle to show a friend how to get there, so I got some exercise in after a day of bumming it indoors all day Friday. I also started looking at things to do in Spain.

Still no couch surfer replies, :/ , but I do have some good news: Dr. Doman has agreed to be my capstone advisor in the fall and Dra. Pites just sent me my RAC code meaning I am ALL READY FOR REGISTRATION TOMORROW. I'm excited! Oh, and potential capstone topic: the liminality of Mexican immigrants/chicanos as analyzed through their literature (not sure if I'm leaning to the drama of migrant workers, short stories... definitely not poetry though!).

Now, to writing a 20% of my grade paper for my Globalization and Democracy class that is due tomorrow. Prompt: has globalization led to the demise of the nation-state? I think not! but it has definitely compromised sovereignty in many ways. On to writing! (for real this time).